Pain

dono hw to say this but i've not been feelin gud nowadays..
not good at all...
sleepless nights..
gastric attack...

and now...

fever...

ppl would say its home sick or maybe love sick...

life without you guys make me feel alone and empty...
colours of my picture is fading..
going back into blankness...

although some of them at this new school has taken me as part of them but i jz don feel the feelin that i had with you guys..
its like they have to accept me by force...

i dont want it to be like this..
i want it to be normal..
like what i usually have..
i dont want to live in a lie...

"miles n miles to go...
before i can say
before i can lay my love for you to sleep
oh darling oh
i got miles n miles to go
if anyone would ever hear...
me laugh again"