Depression

Gawd,my eyes are swollen very bad…cried for hours..instead,I got scolded by my mom…sighhhh…..i don’t get does she understand what am I going through..

 

Because of this incident

 

I have to leave behind

 

Memories

Dancing

Music

B.O.P

The people I love

The people I need

The people I care

 

Everything

 

Why these kind of things kept on happening on me

I just don’t get it

 

I know

 

I’m stupid

I’m a noob

I’m talent-less

I’m not ‘disciplined’

I’m ugly

I’m lazy

I’m spoiled

I’m useless

 

But I’m not that all

 

I’m not perfect

 

You don’t know..

 

If  I didn’t join the board or get to be one

I’ll be even worse than I am at primary school

 

You should know that.

 

I want music

It makes me go on with life

 

I wanna be a musician

So I wanna

Share my music

Tell my story to everyone

  

I don’t get it why you don’t want me to be one

I love to share or perform it to everyone.

 

 

BUT

 

Because of this I cant do this anymore

I’m inspiration-less

I barely write a complete song

 

Everything I write ended up in the garbage bin

 

Now

 

Even my idols songs couldn’t cheer me up.

 

I just ended up crying

Again and again…

I want my old life back

So bad.

Peace.

Play the music with me, Dance to the beat forever.