Sigh

 WARNING: THIS IS A VERY EMO POST YOU'LL BE READING

I know..I know...its 2:23 AM now...I'm still awake and sticking my face in front of da lappy,AND I KNOW...I would get myself into trouble for doing so...but oh well...


But a serious fact...I CANT SLEEP...if I do so,i would end up waking up in the middle of the night staring at the ceiling,turn around and look at my phone wondering is there any texts or miss calls...


So many things hab been going since the release of our SPM results... Crazy applying for courses: the ones you liked,dislike,forced to etc etc...and not to mention scholarships. And of coz I'm one of them crazy applyin for them... It makes me feel such a F&*#-ing headache,i can't apply what i want- Mass Communications.


Reason: -Parents cant afford the fees
             -My mom wont let me apply a loan. WTH?
             -Everyone wants me to be in my mom's path>>Teacher. I know,there's A LOT of benefits being a teacher,BUT I'm NOT interested.


I've mad a lot,seriously A LOT changed plans for my future...


As you can see:


1: I wanted to be a musician [ but than no,coz I was unable to complete my lesson's and people says I'm too dreamy]


2: I wanted to take Multimedia,produce MV's on9 sites bla bla bla [no, fees are WTF?]


3: I want mass communications-to be VJ,script writer or a critic..and guess what,my mom is the one who recommended me this when she realized i can play with words for entertainment. [ no,no.NO...aigoooo]

I feel like crying,crying OUT LOUD in someones arm. [ have cried to frens through phone,but ain't helpin. sigh]


the worst part is,the person I can cry to is leaving to KL to persuade his studies and his on his way to his dream. *sigh again* 


I guess,on the day I went to "cheng beng", you texted me askin where was I...you were to break the news to me and see me one more time before you leave on d'day? It's a total bummer it didn't make up...It's kindda funny and weird...

3 years ago..
I used to like you and I confessed to you but you rejected me and gave me total silent treatment. That totally hurt me.


3 years later..
We meet again in that place...man i have to say,it was really awkward at first. But hell those drama happened... we got close again...but it did worried me for a bit whether you are truely nice to me or just playin with me... I have to say, I think I am falling for you again....

And there's another one...

I have to say I've done something illegal. BUT I have to admit, I kind of like it and missed it :( ottoke?

I need a hug =(

or maybe,I guess I'll just back off so you'll live better?